The footsteps in the hallway didn’t bring comfort—they brought calculation. Shoulders tensed. Breath caught. Another performance was about to begin. This wasn’t a movie. This was RARE (The true story of how I survived a narcissistic parent with homicidal tendencies. A testimony of God’s love and grace) by Rebecca Hidlay—a real-life account of how loyalty, when twisted by fear, becomes a trap instead of a virtue.
The Mask of Devotion
In RARE, Rebecca Hidlay takes readers behind the curtain of a home ruled by terror disguised as discipline. Her mother, wielding charm for outsiders and cruelty behind closed doors, demanded obedience and loyalty—unyielding, unquestioning, and absolute. Rebecca didn’t grow up in a house but on a battlefield. But this battlefield wasn’t visible. It was psychological. Emotional. Spiritual.
The most terrifying weapon wasn’t a raised hand—it was the expectation to stay silent. To smile at church. To protect the very woman who brought torment into every room she entered. Loyalty in RARE isn’t love—it’s bondage dressed as duty.
Love That Feared the Truth
From a young age, Rebecca was taught that family came first—even before truth, even before safety. “Don’t talk. Don’t cry. Don’t tell.” These were commandments handed down like sacred scripture, and breaking them meant suffering far worse than bruises. In RARE, Hidlay shares how the illusion of loyalty served as a cage. It convinced her that enduring abuse without speaking up was noble. That forgiveness meant pretending it never happened. That survival depended on submission.
But loyalty built on fear is not protection—it’s imprisonment. And no matter how tightly you grip it, it never loves you back.
A Daughter’s Duty or a Dangerous Delusion?
Rebecca’s mother didn’t just demand loyalty—she demanded worship. Narcissistic, she spun a world where she was always right, innocent, and the victim. Any challenge, even silence, was betrayal. Rebecca learned early that to keep peace, she had to betray herself.
RARE captures this heartbreaking reality in vivid, unforgiving detail. Hidlay paints the portrait of a child trapped in an emotional maze, where love was conditional, forgiveness was weaponized, and fear was mistaken for family. It wasn’t until she stopped calling it love that she found her way out.
When God Became Louder Than Fear
In the darkest moments, loyalty to her mother almost cost Rebecca her sanity—and her life. But RARE isn’t just a chronicle of pain; it’s a declaration of freedom. In her most broken place, Rebecca began to hear a different voice. A voice not demanding silence, but truth. Not guilt, but grace.
It was through her faith in God that the fog began to lift. Hidlay didn’t just survive her mother—she rose. RARE (The true story of how I survived a narcissistic parent with homicidal tendencies. A testimony of God’s love and grace.) is her testimony that loyalty doesn’t belong to abusers—it belongs to truth, to healing, and ultimately, to the God who never asked her to suffer for love.
RARE is not just a book—it’s a key. For anyone trapped in the lie that blood requires silence, Rebecca Hidlay hands you the truth. You don’t owe loyalty to pain. You owe yourself freedom.
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