It began with deep, echoing pain and then… nothing. The silence wasn’t terrifying. It was still. Calm. Familiar, in a way that made no earthly sense. In her gripping memoir RARE (The true story of how I survived a narcissistic parent with homicidal tendencies. A testimony of God’s love and grace.), Rebecca Hidlay reveals how death didn’t come with shadows and screams. It came with clarity. For three and a half minutes, she crossed a threshold most never return from—and in that space, she encountered Christ.
Leaving the Body Behind
Rebecca Hidlay didn’t float or hover. She didn’t watch the doctors scramble. Instead, she left it all—pain, fear, brokenness—and entered something greater. As detailed in RARE, the cardiac arrest wasn’t just a medical event. It was a spiritual commissioning.
Her spirit was lifted straight into a realm of peace. The chaos of the hospital faded behind a curtain she wasn’t meant to see… until she did. And there, in the most unmistakable voice she’d ever heard, Jesus spoke—not with mystery or parables, but with purpose.
“I Am Not Done with You Yet”
Those were the words. Unshaken. Direct. Holy.
“I am not done with you yet,” Jesus said.
In RARE (The true story of how I survived a narcissistic parent with homicidal tendencies. A testimony of God’s love and grace.), Rebecca Hidlay does not embellish. She doesn’t need to. This moment stands alone. The voice of Christ was not booming. It was centered. It didn’t stir panic—it awakened resolve. Even in that in-between place, she recognized the sound of the One who had been with her in every abusive memory, every injury, every betrayal she’d suffered at the hands of a parent who could not love.
Jesus didn’t explain why it happened. He didn’t give her answers. He gave her a mission.
The Return: Life Comes Roaring Back
Rebecca Hidlay returned to her body not gently, but forcefully. Back into the pain. Back into the noise. Her breath tore through her lungs like fire. Her scream ripped through the hospital halls. But this time, she was different.
She had heard Him.
In RARE, she writes of the aftershock—physically and spiritually. How do you live your life after Jesus tells you He’s not finished with you yet? You live with purpose. With fire. With testimony in your lungs.
A Testimony Sealed in Silence
For years, Rebecca Hidlay had survived abuse, neglect, fear, and manipulation. But this moment- this divine encounter—was not survival. It was confirmation. Her life had meaning beyond the scars. Her story weighed pain.
RARE (The true story of how I survived a narcissistic parent with homicidal tendencies. A testimony of God’s love and grace) is not a journal. It’s not even a memoir in the traditional sense. It’s a record of divine interruption. A moment where the God of Heaven pressed pause on eternity just long enough to speak life into someone the world tried to erase.
Rebecca Hidlay’s encounter wasn’t a final chapter. It was a new beginning. And her story, as shared in RARE, might just be the nudge others need to believe there is more—beyond the trauma, despair, and silence.
You can get your copy of RARE (The true story of how I survived a narcissistic parent with homicidal tendencies. A testimony of God’s love and grace) by Rebecca Hidlay today on Amazon or from the official website. Let her testimony shake you awake—and remind you: even when your pulse stops, God’s purpose doesn’t.